2023-06-12 10:20 am
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I guess I will never fall in love (and nobody is going to fall in love with me)

This is my first entry is this website and I'd like to talk about how much of a aromantic I am. First and for most, please, if you are reading this don't think "Oh well she just haven't met the right person yet", you are right, I haven't, and I guess I won't after what happened to me saturday.
There I was after hanging out with my dear friend, that reads tarot cards, sitting in his bed while his mother was asleep and his two cats couldn't stop staring at the newcomer. I politely asked if he could read what's up for me and mainly my love life. He said yes, sure. I had multiple questions like, "Am I gonna fall in love? Will I have someone? Will someone have me?". My friend simply replied to: "No" at every question that I had.
 You must be thinking, and I also thought too, that tarot cards can be wrong, they can mean other things or mean nothing sometimes, anything is possible! But this, this just got my hopes down in some way. 
At other times I'd laugh saying like "It's okay, I can deal with myself alone, I don't need anybody!". But now, having this type of answer, this really bummed me out and it's scary to think. I don't know if I wanna die alone.